December 2011
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Anonymous asked: I don't know, but I like this quote: I want you to get into the deep, beautiful melancholy of everything that’s happened.
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specialunlimitededition asked: Random question: What is your favorite animal..? xD <3
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Anonymous asked: Are you a virgin?
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Anonymous asked: You're never alone ♥
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alone.
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tinytarabones replied to your post: somehow gained?
hey hey hey you’re still tiny and beautiful! come on you know that number doesn’t matter! you could gain 5 pounds and you would look visibly basically the same. Don’t let it get you down! i think you’re beautiful! (especially your hair) tehehe
thank you…I just can’t deal with it. I’m going to see my boyfriend tomorrow and I...
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somehow gained?
dying.
ate breakfast, that’ll be it for the day.
fuck.
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Anonymous asked: Hii!! what did you eat today?
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talk to meee? :) →
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I have to leave in an hour and I just can't get...
Damn it.
I went out with some of my friends last night and I was that awkward girl at dinner who ordered a water w/ lemon and no food. Cool.
We went to one of their houses after and we were talking about weight (of course, right?) and how models should be “average looking”. One of the boys goes, “yeah, they should look like you guys! What’s average? A size 4?”
Um,...
thoughtsdontend:
90orless:
Gaining weight like a stupid fucking whale-sized failure a boss
ahh omg this!
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work...
I’ve eaten so much today and I haven’t even been awake that long. Work 3-7, I know I won’t eat there…just so disappointed with myself. I don’t know why I had to binge this morning. Probably because I haven’t been taking my pills at the same time every day…I’m all fucked up right now.
116.6lbs this morning. Still not good enough. I have to get down...
Maybe, Just Maybe If I Quit Shoveling Pointless...
relevant…
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Anonymous asked: Does your boyfriend know about your eating disorder? If so, how does he feel about it? Also, what are your thoughts on Demi Lovato
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Anonymous asked: You're so pretty! Seriously find it in your heart and stay strong :)
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fitskinnybones asked: your legs are fucking perfect - im so jealous! :(
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home from a long day out with my family.
It was fun. Not talking about my weight today (made the terrible mistake of weighing myself the day after Christmas…it’s impossible to gain 4 pounds in two days. So we’re going to pretend it’s just water weight and that as long as I get back on track, I’ll be back down to 115.4 in no time).
Intake was a tuna burger, no bun (200), 1/8 brown rice (16), and 1/4 cup...
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I want to die.
I hate today. I hate my body. I hate myself. I hate gaining. I hate losing. I hate breathing.
I want to disappear.
I want to feel all the pain in the world and then nothing at all.
I need it to stop.
Just everything, stop. For one moment.
Or forever. For fuck’s sake, just let me die. Please, God, let me die tonight.
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update:
I went to the doctor’s and I kinda freaked out. I found out that I may not be 5’7”. She said I was 5’6.5”. I know that half an inch probably makes no difference to most people, but the day I went was the first day my BMI was 18.4. Back in the healthy range.
Shorter and fatter. Huge panic.
Yesterday, I weighed in at 116.2. Afraid to weigh myself today. I...
